Future.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Couldn't really sleep, and am friggin pissed off by the e-learning shit, there's just too much to do!

Was lying on my bed, struggling to get some sleep when I start to think about my future. What am I gonna do when I get out of NS? People keep telling me:"Wah, fix aeroplane ar? Got future seh." But to me? I think that I'm gonna hate this job. Sure, I don't mind dirtying my hands, but there's just too much regulations to abide to in this industry. I really want to further my studies, just to continue the painless "student life", but I can't. Fuck my stupid results. Can't go anywhere with my lousy grades.

My dream is to be a pilot (oh wait, actually, striking a lottery sounds more tempting), but I don't know if I can make it though. My passion for planes just ain't deep enough, I guess. I still remember a few years back, when I was pining to get into Mass Comm... I'd laugh at myself right now for being that foolish then... Anyway, at least that Raymond has a dream, he dreamt of being a journalist, to do nothing but write for a living. It might sound stupid, but I used to love writing and I find it fun. Now? I don't know what to do. Maintain aeroplanes? Become a total hermit and stay in a hanger? Oh, same job scope, sorry.

I want something more dynamic in my life. Something more adventurous. That's why the dream of being a pilot fits the bill just fine. But if I could ever turn back time, I would totally study harder for my O's, just follow my (ex)passion for writing. :(

As for my life currently, would like to have a little more lurve! And more money, to be honest. But with brothers like Ai Ping, BT, Seb, Shi Chow, Thomas and ZW, life's been good! And with buddies like Benja and Eug, fun's never too far away. Although financially, it's tough hanging out with them... :x But nevertheless, these few guys and girl will be remembered dearly in my life for eternity!



Oh, and to Seb, if you're reading this, hopefully our grudge is way down memory lane... There's no one to tell cock stories when the gang went out for these past few days... Hopefully we won't drift too far apart, as you've and always been my buddy since sec 4!

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